why am i still so fucking terrified to talk to people i find attractive?
“But I also consider being female such a unique gift, such a sacred joy, in ways that run so deep I can’t even articulate them. It’s a special kind of privilege to be born into the body you wanted, to embrace the essence of your gender even as you recognize what you are up against. Even as you seek to redefine it.
I know that when I am dying, looking back, it will be women that I regret having argued with, women I sought to impress, to understand, was tortured by. Women I wish to see again, to see them smile and laugh and say, ‘It was all as it should have been.’”
(likes boys but isn’t happy about it)
me in high school: omg cant wait for college
me in college: omg cant wait for the 10 years between retirement and the cold embrace of the grave